January 25

I am someone with high anxiety, last night I laid in bed not able to sleep because my thoughts were racing in every direction. Lately, I have had so much on my plate that I really don’t know which direction to go in or when to go. It’s been overwhelming and I am so lost. Sometimes things seem so clear and the path is wide open, other times I feel like I am pushing heavy sludge around and looking through a dense fog never getting anywhere. I know that I need to make changes, one being that I must reduce my stress.


January 24

Our love for our neighbors is in parallel to the Love we have for ourselves. While I think God intends for us to love our neighbors deeply, He also wants us to love ourselves. We are made in His image and perfect in His eyes. It is often the hardest concept to love thyself, and thus love thy neighbor but so increasingly important to keep in mind with our social media society. We have many people around us who do not truly love themselves and thus cannot truly love their neighbors. Seeking validation from others does not allow us to introspectively choose to accept the parts about ourselves we cannot change and love ourselves fully. In theory, everyone understands that we must show love and compassion for those around us but how often do we show the same to ourselves?

We must therefore, learn to have self acceptance and love before we can extend that kindness outwardly to those around us. Some of the best friends I have understand this concept. They do not speak ill in regards to their shortcomings or produce self deprecating images on a daily basis.

I encourage those who read this text and think “yes, I should love my neighbors more ” to first look inwardly and learn to love themselves.


Seltzer Water

My obsession with seltzer water began in 2002, nearly 16 years ago.  My aunts drink an obscene amount of the stuff and it was readily available when I was at their homes. They always had seltzer instead of any kind of soda and I was not a soda drinker anyways.  Growing up my mom preferred the fizzy taste of diet pepsi, while I was not allowed to have any kind of soda. When I started to learn about the dangers of substitute sugar, I kindly suggested my mom try seltzer instead. She was reluctant at first, but then developed some rather strange neurologic symptoms. Not entirely sure if it was related to her soda drinking habit, she decided that switching vices might not be a bad idea. Slowly, she made the transition fully and all of her problems abated. Hooked, she began to stock the house full of the stuff. This made it easy for me to become an instant addict as well.

Opening up the fridge and pulling out one of those happy little cans, became a daily ritual and now I can’t imagine not having my preferred water. Now I know that all brands are not made equal. I myself, prefer Waterloo, the taste is unparalleled. Second runner up is Polar, but that is hard to find in Michigan. My most convenient choice is La Croix, while not superb in taste, it is readily available at local grocers. Lastly, I will drink the generic variety, the most favorite of my wallet.

Sitting here tonight, I am truly perplexed at my love for seltzer water. What is it about this fizzing drink that has absolutely bewitched?


Ketogenic Diet

My ketogenic diet journey began in June 2017 at the advice of my friend and colleague. She knew I had recently been struggling with my weight and had talked about how I used to be in ‘better shape’. She kindly suggested that I try the ketogenic diet, what did I have to lose?

All of my life I had ranged from 125-135lbs, without much effort. I was a swimmer in grade/high school and in college, I kept a rigorous exercise routine. My parents are both marathoners and nutritionally conscious. I grew up on a diet rich with fruits, vegetables, lean meats and few grains. Needless to say, physical fitness/health was ingrained into my psyche. In college, I pursued a degree in kinesiology, believing that true wellness comes from within.

In 2015, I met my ex-fiance and by 2016  we were engaged and living together. We dined on a diet full of carbs, carbs and more carbs. I decided in 2016 to run a marathon, and thus embarked and a tireless journey of self improvement. I had this vision when I started, that by the end, I would lose my swimmer’s physique of broad shoulders and change into this running goddess. WRONG. I binged on carbs, thinking that I would need them to keep up my energy; unfortunately, the slow steady state cardio did not burn off the carbs at the rate I thought. By the time, fall 2016 approached I was up to 155lbs, feeling sluggish, and completely unhappy with the state of my health.

I was working long hours and filling myself up with all of the carbs I could find. This is when my very wise friend kindly suggested I try keto. She talked of this fabulous lifestyle where you can eat cheese, meat, coconut oil, and all of the delicious fats I could find, all I had to do was keep my carbs to a minimum. No problem! In 3 months time, I was back down to 130lbs and a very happy camper. I wish I could sympathize with people on a painful weightloss track, but I simply cannot.

It has been 7 months and I am proud to say that I have kept my carbs to a minimum and am reaping the rewards. Not to mention, the keto diet is endorsed by some big names in holistic health and has peer-reviewed research to back it’s efficacy.

While my story is not wrought with pain and heartache that pulls at the strings of your heart, I hope it inspires you to give keto a try.


January 23

Today’s bible verse reminds us that God has plans for us that we can’t fathom. We are so focused on what we can physically see, hear, or think of that we don’t realize big things or small are in store for us.

There’s the saying “I don’t know what I don’t know” and this is the perfect summation to this verse. Be open today to what you don’t know and keep vigilant for new opportunities and new paths that God has laid before you.


January 22

Trusting in Him is a hard concept to accept. Many of us prefer to think that we can control everything and when we things don’t go our way, we feel lost.

God tells us that we need to trust in Him and put confidence in Him. So often, we see challenges and struggles as insurmountable, but usually they are there to teach us a lesson and help us to grow.

I have had my fair share of troubles where I found myself down and out. It’s easier to sit on the couch, eat my feelings or drown myself in Netflix binge watching. It’s important to keep our eyes focused on moving forward and trust that there is a plan for you and me. We are taught the lessons that we need to learn.

This is never easy and it’s not meant to be! Iron is strengthened in fire.



There is a book about de-cluttering and tidying up. I think it’s called “The life changing magic of tidying up” and then there is Dave Ramsey who talks about selling all of the un-necessary stuff you have accumulated in order to pay off debts faster. All in all, the best of the best suggest that you must give up, in order to gain.

Heading into 2018 makes me give these ideas serious consideration. In 2017, I bought an apple watch and while it definitely made keeping in touch with people much easier, I started to worry about harmful EMF waves. Anyways, that’s not really important, what is however, is the fact, that I really don’t think I want to keep it and as such I am going to sell it on Ebay.  The thought of selling something on Ebay gives me anxiety, but the freedom of not being tied down to this watch is kind of exciting.  Unfortunately, I can’t get back everything that I paid, but I something is better than nothing.

I also have a beach cruiser bike, that an ex bought for me, that I really don’t need. It was a great gift when I lived at the beach, but now that I live in the frozen tundra, it’s quite superfluous. It has sat in a garage for the past 2 years, becoming a great dust collector.  Time for it to go. Along with the bike carrier fit for the SUV I no longer own.

While all of this won’t add up to much, I think I will find the magic in tidying up. So with that, I encourage you to find what you don’t need and consider selling it or giving it away.

After I muster up the courage to actually rid myself of these belongings, I will update this post.


What is Gluten?

I get this question a lot, and I mean A LOT. What is gluten? Why is everything labeled gluten free and do I have celiac disease?

Okay, so first off let me start off by saying that gluten is a real thing and we should pay attention.

Second of all, can you benefit from minimizing your gluten intake? Absolutely.

I would direct you Dr. Perlmutter’s book, Grain Brain. Available on amazon.  This book gives everyone an honest look at gluten, what it is, how it affects our bodies and why we might want to avoid it in our food.

Gluten, in and of itself, is not a bad thing. Let me repeat, gluten is not a bad thing. It is a naturally occurring protein, that is formed when wheat and yeast get together.  Unfortunately, gluten is pervasive in our processed food supply (i.e. flavored coffee) and has been unknowingly dumped on our bodies in mass quantities.

So, yes we need to aware of what it is and where it is, but we do not need to fear it, unless of course you have Celiac’s Disease and then you need to run, far far far away from it.

For me, I was consuming gluten on a daily basis, multiple times a day and had no idea! I didn’t realize it was in my favorite flavored hazelnut coffee or my coffee creamer, or my salad dressing (when I was being healthy for lunch, during a crazed graduate school day), or my ice cream (*read tough day at work). After reading Dr. Perlmutter’s book, I realized that gluten had invaded my life and I didn’t even know.

My gut on the other hand was under attack from this constant stream of gluey, sticky, stuff. From what I now know, this glue (gluten means glue, literally), can stick to my gut and cause leaky gut syndrome. Meaning my second brain (gut), doesn’t make all of my brain hormones or regular hormones for that matter.

So what do I do?? I try to eat whole foods, that can’t possibly have gluten, and minimize my intake where possible. That’s not to say I don’t indulge when I want to, because I definitely do. Now I’m just a more cognizant person, about what I put in my body.


Information Overload

Do you ever look at old family photos and think “geeze, they had it so easy?”

I look at my family’s photos from the 70’s and everyone looks so thin and happy. Then I look at my photos from the past 10 years and think “my God, that’s been a struggle”. Not to say I’m a pessimist about life. On the contrary, life is awesome!  What I have struggled with is the overwhelming amount of information on diet and exercise. Every 6 months there is a new way to exercise and a new diet to try. Weight lifting is good, but yoga is better! Get out and walk, no, now do High Intensity Interval Training…eat 6 smalls meals a day, But Wait! the research says you should fast for 16 hours a day and eat whatever you want in 8 hours.

STOP! It’s maddening.

Maybe I’m the only one who finds this assault of information overwhelming.  My Instagram and Facebook feeds are filled with results from this program and that program.  I love seeing people getting results and feeling great. But sometimes at the end of the day, I think to myself, are we doing more harm than good?

Has our quest to be happy and thin, left us jumping ships to the point where we can’t remember where we started? Perhaps I’m over thinking this, but at the end of day, I honestly couldn’t tell you what to do for exercise or how to eat.

Like I said, I’m going to chronicle my journey of researching health topics and I hope it helps you.


“Health” Journey?

Let’s talk about the “health” journey…

I swear, everyone is on a health journey these days.

Maybe it’s because we are all so unhealthy, with our steady diet of fast food, TV, and sedentary lifestyles, that we feel the need to seek our health at every opportunity.

Instead of finding information easy to understand and implement, we are inundated with buy this, try this, and do that.

I think we’re over complicating things…

We eat like crap, so start eating better.

We sit all day, so try walking after work.

We watch too much TV, so start reading something positive every night.

This might sound silly or too easy, but why are we trying to complicate are already over complicated lives?

Let’s just start with the simple and build from there.